In recovery, we are told constantly that the key is surrender. In fact, we are not only told that we are sometimes berated, beaten, and bludgeoned with this spiritual discipline. But whether I like the delivery of the message, the truth of it does not cease to be life-changing.
Surrender or Resignation.
One of them is giving up and one of them is giving in? One of them is active; one passive. Is there really a difference? And if so, would I even know what that difference is?
As I ask these questions I am merely speaking to myself, not to anyone else. At this point in my journey of recovery, and my journey with God, I’m not sure where I stand: am I at a place of Surrender or Resignation. It could be one, the other or both.
I truly do not know. But the good news is that God does.
When it comes to giving up or giving in, faith and fear become guides that in some ways ‘will’ me forward. The question is which one will I choose to be my guide: fear or faith?
Surrender involves faith; faith in a God I have come to experience deeply as Love and compassion. Resignation is about fear; fear that is a poisonous and ruinous drug.
Surrender is about journeying towards something while resignation is about running away from something (or Some One).
If truth be told, I have much and little of both. But the choice is mine.
So which one will it be? Faith or fear?
The answer will change everything!